no escaping way out

what did I ever think to come back to this hell? no escape it's like a prison cell, I can't scream i wanna yell! i was on point then it took a week then I fell, I can't get up i need a hand, does anybody out there understand? sleeping with the enemy hoping I don't wake up, need the promised land, by the time p comes in i will be dead, at least one of you will hear what I said, I don't need a platform or podcast, I need a big sawn off to just blast ,! it's taking longer than I hoped. I doubt anyone else would have coped......no escape no out somebody hear me do I got to shout? why do I let you treat me like dirt? what's the alternative? either way from the inside out my whole being will hurt, but it can't continue like this , only I can change the stupid move I made, coz abuse , and toxic memories never fade, if anyone knows a hero i need a save, start fresh on my own and den I won't feel like a dog that needs a bone,I don't got thr energy to physically goght u no more, So you think you'll get away with it again and again plus more, your money means more than you family or kids, so how could I know that and still miss.? how your soul cruel and deceitful, but you'll get yours motherfucker your souls so evil. I'm not crying no more tears for you, just the fact remains I'm baby blue, I got more money than you could believe, let's hope it comes while I can still breathe, yeah your pissed lately but I know why, I'm not choke me off and i give you that youre persistent , you really did ftry,but you can't be wrong and strong I hope it's a natural occurrence before one of us murders the other one, ahit if I ever told my son what's really going down, he'd be here quicker than a james bond that could fly but that's why I don't tell him he's be more isaed with me for not taking u out already big guy, yeah you're a real big man, does it make u feelgood?memba I know a lot shit about you no1else would there's no way out for me ,but no escape for you either you're a worthless can't and I'm a high achiever, talented and gifted, even in my invisible cage, spiritual and tranquil even when I'm full of rage, you just show you're true colours, everything's a repeat ,your a good showman but you're spiritually deplete, you're just my screw, jailer soon I'm just gonna have to delete ya