Myself

Title: “Love Me While I’m Bleeding” [Intro – low, tired voice] Yeah… I don’t even know who I am anymore Just a heartbeat with trauma attached to it [Hook – melodic, heavy emotion] I been fucked up, I admit it Heart cold, yeah I’m distant You said you love me — you didn’t Now I’m drowning in my feelings I gave everything I had Now I’m angry, now I’m sad Every time I trust I crash Why the fuck love never last? [Verse 1] I grew up in a house full of yelling and pain Daddy disappeared, mama stressed from the strain I was 12 learning how to hide what I felt ’Cause showing any weakness get you left by yourself So I built walls, yeah bricks so tall Told myself I’d never need nobody at all But that’s a lie I tell when I’m drunk at night Texting you paragraphs I never send, right? You said I’m toxic, maybe you right I sabotage anything that feel like light ’Cause every time I ever let somebody in They turned around and cut me deeper than my skin I done had girls say they love me then cheat Say I’m the only one then lie through they teeth And I ain’t innocent, I got sins too I pushed good women away when they got too close to the truth I’m scared of forever, I admit that shit ’Cause forever always end and I can’t handle it I’d rather leave first before I get left Act like I don’t care but it fucks my head [Hook – more aggressive] I been fucked up, I admit it Heart cold, yeah I’m distant You said you love me — you didn’t Now I’m drowning in my feelings I gave everything I had Now I’m angry, now I’m sad Every time I trust I crash Why the fuck love never last? [Verse 2] I done lost homies to pills and pride Some in the ground, some still alive but dead inside We used to dream about making it out Now we just coping with liquor and doubt I smoke too much just to quiet my brain Pop a pill just to numb the pain Wake up feeling like I’m stuck in a loop Same broken heart, just a different you I been in beds with women I barely knew Trying to replace what I lost in you Sex don’t heal, it just distract Temporary high, then the sadness snap back And I hate that I hate that I need validation That I confuse love with temptation That I chase lust when I’m feeling vacant Then feel ashamed after every sensation I’m exhausted from fighting myself Smiling in public, dying for help They say “You strong,” but that shit don’t heal Being strong just mean you suffer in silence for real Sometimes I sit in my car and scream Like is this really what life supposed to be? Success don’t fix what trauma built You can’t flex away guilt [Bridge – vulnerable, cracked voice] If I push you away, it’s not you It’s the fear of what love can do ’Cause every time I let someone see The broken parts of me… They leave. [Final Hook – emotional, layered vocals] I been fucked up, I admit it Heart cold, yeah I’m distant You said you love me — you didn’t Now I’m drowning in my feelings I gave everything I had Now I’m angry, now I’m sad Every time I trust I crash Why the fuck love never last? Yeah… Why the fuck love never last…