Step by step on my own

Song about going to rehab and what comes next #Stepbysteponmyown #McCP'ssongs #Eternalsouls Verse 1: McCP's shit Woke up worn down, brain loud, stuck in a cycle Same route, pain clouds, veins full of vices I chased freedom in circles, chained by denial Scared of the quiet, I needed the noise just to stay vital Days smeared, nights stretched, soul feeling vacant Fake smiles, straight faces, heart in a straitjacket Spoke hope, broke oaths, mirrors stayed avoided Knew I was sinking, still drank what destroyed it Every tomorrow felt borrowed, not promised Every “I’m fine” was a lie I polished Lost tempo, trust issues stitched in my name Even my dreams look back like, “who did you become?” I’m not proud of the path that dragged me here But I’m done being ruled by the habits I fear Still breathing through static, battling years If I’m alive in this moment, then that’s a miracle, yeah. Chorus: I’m learning how to breathe without the pain One day clean, tryna feel human again I don’t know where I’m going, but I’m here Still scared, still shaking, still sincere. I’m still here, even when it’s hard Still fighting demons in the dark If you feel lost, you’re not alone I’m walking this road, step by step, on my own. Verse 2 : Pinned to the floor by withdrawal tremors Jaw clenched, thoughts sprint, war drums in my temple Skin crawls, nerves lit, cortisol rituals I don’t fight cravings — I strangle the visuals Tongue tastes metal, breath ragged and feral Sweat-soaked bedsheets, death knocking in decimals I chew through the panic, spit syllables serrated Every bar is a scar that I surgically separated No sleep, eyes bleed, time bends and fractures Clock ticks like threats, seconds snapping like rapture Brainbox riot, sirens wired in language I rap to stay sane while my pulse tries to vanish Don’t tell me “be patient”, I’ve been tested by fire White-knuckle days, nights possessed by desire I don’t crave highs, I crave silence and still But the noise in my skull tries to sign me a deal So I stomp out the urge with my heels in the dirt Chest pounding like tribes when the war paint is burnt Teeth grit, lips split, breath hits percussive Survival ain’t pretty — it’s violent and stubborn I’m breaking my habits like bones when they set wrong Rewiring the damage I lived in for too long If I sound unhinged, it’s ‘cause healing is brutal. Chorus: Outro: Pinned to the floor by withdrawal tremors Jaw clenched, thoughts sprint, war drums in my temple Skin crawls, nerves lit, cortisol rituals I don’t fight cravings — I strangle the visuals Tongue tastes metal, breath ragged and feral Sweat-soaked bedsheets, death knocking in decimals I chew through the panic, spit syllables serrated Every bar is a scar that I surgically separated No sleep, eyes bleed, time bends and fractures Clock ticks like threats, seconds snapping like rapture Brainbox riot, sirens wired in language I rap to stay sane while my pulse tries to vanish Don’t tell me “be patient”, I’ve been tested by fire White-knuckle days, nights possessed by desire I don’t crave highs, I crave silence and still But the noise in my skull tries to sign me a deal So I stomp out the urge with my heels in the dirt Chest pounding like tribes when the war paint is burnt Teeth grit, lips split, breath hits percussive Survival ain’t pretty — it’s violent and stubborn I’m breaking my habits like bones when they set wrong Rewiring the damage I lived in for too long If I sound unhinged, it’s ‘cause healing is brutal I’m not being reborn — I’m being ripped from the womb, yeah Still breathing Still standing Still choosing life One day at a timeI stayed I faced it I didn’t run I’m hereFrom the dark I learned to breathe From the fall I chose to live From the fall I chose to live From the fall I chose to live (Hardcore voice)