Wailing

While going through tough times with my auditory hallucinations starting a few days back. 10 years back was when it all started. Since 4 years back I have been consistently dealing with grandiose religious delusions. I don’t take it literally just a scientific term. Coming back to the topic. I said to my auditory hallucinations starting Monday I will try listening to the “Bhaktamal Katha” a Hindu religious scripture. Based on over 200 devotees. There are a few preachers on YouTube from which I picked Pujya Shri Indresh Ji Maharaj. Soon after I was skipping reels on Facebook was when I landed on one of his shorts. He said devotion done while being pleasant is not that effective than devotion that is done restlessly and wailing. The effects of which becomes hundred thousand times more and that is what I have been doing. For 4 years straight. Only I know the pain. You know what they say though “no pain no gain”.