understand me

Sometimes I look at my life and wish that God was more in what I do every day instead of always and waiting on the sidelines for me to change. Sometimes I need a little bit of response to make an action. So sometimes when I react, it isn't what I'm trying to do, but this is how I'm feeling the time if you aint really your purpose, you aint gonna make an impact. So why would I change that if God was in my life, my impact would go the way I wanted you instead of running the way back around and getting me pushed back in the first place, so I'm trying to get out the frame and get The game and rise to the man upstairs. You understand me. So if you wanna come across the way and start talking that s*** up the side of your dome, it might not be the smartest way to come at me, cause I end up putting a bullet in your head n****, I am that real m*********** I told you 2 times but 40 b****, a** m***********, I am that n*****, you feel me being chosen, don't make you the m************ man, put it, push me on the path to become who I am.