remix( demons)

I think I need a doctor there's something wrong with my head . I feel lost I feel the deranged all the thougths, the mermorys , the gulit and the stress is got me visualizing an hearing voices inside my brain, telling me to do evil things I try not to listen to them b.ut I can't bear but to hear what they say. wanting me cross over ,to be just like them. cold hearted an unhumain but i resist, i fight back cause thats not who i want to be., thats why i stay sedated. so i cant think of all the wrongs of my ways, so i cant feel i stay numb. it keeps away the tears . helps me control all these demons i have let take oxer my soul. yea its a sad life when gotta stay high just so u can get by, but without it ,im not even going lie. even my own safety im not even sure of, i might get pissed an take my self out just say fuck it. see when i black out all i see is distruction an pain. dont want talk ,dont need to explain. im thinking of kill you anyway. . tierd of shit, tierd ppl thinking im game. knowing i need help but got me worried bout what they might say, or even maybe they lock me away. that chance im not willing to take, just for little bit of sanity beside itheir other ways to keep the darkness away. smoke that loud ,get lifted up in clouds.its worked so far im keep self medacateing so these demons i can keep locked away.trust what i say ,you dont want them to come out an play.