I feel like I'm frozen

I feel like I'm frozen sometimes stuck in slow motion drug's causing no 🙂‍↔️ emotion constantly stirring up commotion my life is like an erosion so full of corrosion try to hold it in till there's anexplosion I realize I'm still here,,,stuck,,,,frozen trying to cover my pain by dosin, but I just end up stuck in that rutt, frozen, just puttin a mask on to stay in the lane, where there is nothin but rain what's wrong with my brain problems is the thing I gain going backwards against the grain down is the place I remain trapped in the devil's domain I try but can't maintain it's fucked up tough but I chose my own terrain so lost not sure what I'm trying to obtain constantly smoking on the devil's strain so stuck in that rutt,,,,, frozen insane