change

how much more can I take before I just break I feel like I'm going insane my body all tingling and numb. confusion and stress in my head sometimes I want to feel my body with lead so I can feel nothing at all I've always been told to never back down and to always stand tall but some of these situations in life that occurred sometimes I just want to quit and fall. I've been beaten and broken to the point of no return still im here. undefeated unscarred. pushing on cause im be damn if i fall. my pride will make me over come it all . each day im looking an exsploreing new possabltys an option that will make me a better man at end the day. i know i can never be perfect but i can try to come as close as i can. cause man i was ,he was ful of sin, down right evil man. never seen past his own greed. always in some shit just for what he may needed. i was seeing it all wrong for so long. i can say im glad that mans gone but even thougth he gone i still cant help but to hold my head in shame cause i carry so much blame. try learn how to forgive myself but cant seem find way. an i might carry this guil to my grave but im tryin to do my best to do right by the wrongs i did these days.