"LA MUERTE" my LOYALFREIND

i was never supposed to be here since before my birth deaths been near/ i was nearly Aborted my conscience is distorted/ my spirits being tormented/ my mind is fragmented/suffering my consequences/ for my accions unable to leRn from lifez lessons/they say every day is a blessing/ive turned what's blessed and turned it into a curse/ life or death? which is worse/dieing or living filled with remorse/ life that should of never been living waiting for the end/ death caresses me every now and then/unknowingly its been a loyal freind/ its been by myside before birth and will take me when life ends/ before my first breath and after death/ its been my shadow with me every step/and will carry me away when theres nothing left