numb again
numb again [Intro] Yeah Late nights, bad habits You already know what it is [Chorus] I been faded every day, tryna numb what I feel Pills on my tongue, tell myself this shit heals I don’t wanna die, but I don’t wanna feel So I pour another cup, yeah I know it’s real Mama say I’m lost, I say “nah, I’m just tired” Demons in my head got my soul fuckin’ wired I don’t love the drugs, but I hate bein’ sober Every night I swear I’m done, every morning it’s over [Verse 1] I remember sayin’ “just once,” now it’s every damn night Started with the pain, now I’m runnin’ from life Got friends in my phone that I don’t even call ‘Cause they only know me when I’m up, not when I fall I be talkin’ to God with a cup in my hand Sayin’ “please understand,” then I pop another Xan Yeah I know it’s dumb, yeah I know it’s slow suicide But the silence is loud, and the drugs make it quiet [Pre-Chorus] Heart too heavy, mind too loud Tryna be clean but I’m deep right now I hate myself when I come back down Look in the mirror like “who the fuck are you now?” [Chorus] I been faded every day, tryna numb what I feel Pills on my tongue, tell myself this shit heals I don’t wanna die, but I don’t wanna feel So I pour another cup, yeah I know it’s real Mama say I’m lost, I say “nah, I’m just tired” Demons in my head got my soul fuckin’ wired I don’t love the drugs, but I hate bein’ sober Every night I swear I’m done, every morning it’s over [Verse 2] I got demons in my bloodstream, veins full of regret Tryna chase a high I ain’t never caught yet Everybody think it’s fun ‘til you stuck in the loop Same lies, same pain, same fucked-up truth I ain’t flexin’ this shit, this ain’t cool, this ain’t lit I’d trade every high just to feel legit But I’m scared of my thoughts when I’m sober as fuck So I light one up, yeah, I’m callin’ my bluff [Bridge] If I stop, who am I? If I feel, will I break? If I quit, will the pain finally fuckin’ go away? I don’t know, I don’t know All I know is tonight I’m fightin’ myself just to make it to light [Verse 3] Doctors say “slow down,” I say “you don’t get it” This ain’t just a habit, this a war in my head, bitch I been drownin’ in emotions I don’t know how to say So I sip ‘em away, yeah, I sniff ‘em away I don’t wanna be a statistic on a shirt But I’m tired of the hurt, and the hurt fuckin’ hurts Still hopin’ one day I wake up okay Without needin’ a substance just to get through the day [Final Chorus] I been faded every day, tryna numb what I feel Pills on my tongue, tell myself this shit heals I don’t wanna die, but I don’t wanna feel So I pour another cup, yeah I know it’s real If I make it out alive, imma tell my truth All this pain in my chest, yeah it shaped my youth I don’t love the drugs, I just hate my brain Tryna learn how to live without drownin’ the pain [Outro] Yeah If you feel this, you ain’t alone I’m still fightin’ too
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numb again [Intro] Yeah Late nights, bad habits You already know what it is [Chorus] I been faded every day, tryna numb what I feel Pills on my tongue, tell myself this shit heals I don’t wanna die, but I don’t wanna feel So I pour another cup, yeah I know it’s real Mama say I’m lost, I say “nah, I’m just tired” Demons in my head got my soul fuckin’ wired I don’t love the drugs, but I hate bein’ sober Every night I swear I’m done, every morning it’s over [Verse 1] I remember sayin’ “just once,” now it’s every damn night Started with the pain, now I’m runnin’ from life Got friends in my phone that I don’t even call ‘Cause they only know me when I’m up, not when I fall I be talkin’ to God with a cup in my hand Sayin’ “please understand,” then I pop another Xan Yeah I know it’s dumb, yeah I know it’s slow suicide But the silence is loud, and the drugs make it quiet [Pre-Chorus] Heart too heavy, mind too loud Tryna be clean but I’m deep right now I hate myself when I come back down Look in the mirror like “who the fuck are you now?” [Chorus] I been faded every day, tryna numb what I feel Pills on my tongue, tell myself this shit heals I don’t wanna die, but I don’t wanna feel So I pour another cup, yeah I know it’s real Mama say I’m lost, I say “nah, I’m just tired” Demons in my head got my soul fuckin’ wired I don’t love the drugs, but I hate bein’ sober Every night I swear I’m done, every morning it’s over [Verse 2] I got demons in my bloodstream, veins full of regret Tryna chase a high I ain’t never caught yet Everybody think it’s fun ‘til you stuck in the loop Same lies, same pain, same fucked-up truth I ain’t flexin’ this shit, this ain’t cool, this ain’t lit I’d trade every high just to feel legit But I’m scared of my thoughts when I’m sober as fuck So I light one up, yeah, I’m callin’ my bluff [Bridge] If I stop, who am I? If I feel, will I break? If I quit, will the pain finally fuckin’ go away? I don’t know, I don’t know All I know is tonight I’m fightin’ myself just to make it to light [Verse 3] Doctors say “slow down,” I say “you don’t get it” This ain’t just a habit, this a war in my head, bitch I been drownin’ in emotions I don’t know how to say So I sip ‘em away, yeah, I sniff ‘em away I don’t wanna be a statistic on a shirt But I’m tired of the hurt, and the hurt fuckin’ hurts Still hopin’ one day I wake up okay Without needin’ a substance just to get through the day [Final Chorus] I been faded every day, tryna numb what I feel Pills on my tongue, tell myself this shit heals I don’t wanna die, but I don’t wanna feel So I pour another cup, yeah I know it’s real If I make it out alive, imma tell my truth All this pain in my chest, yeah it shaped my youth I don’t love the drugs, I just hate my brain Tryna learn how to live without drownin’ the pain [Outro] Yeah If you feel this, you ain’t alone I’m still fightin’ too