static in my veins

“STATIC IN MY VEINS” [Intro] Yeah Static in my head, demons on repeat Talkin’ to the mirror like it’s talkin’ back to me [Verse 1] Wake up with a weight on my chest, still breathin’ Every night a war, every morning I’m bleedin’ Pills in my pocket, hope in decline Tryna kill the pain but the pain don’t die Lost friends to the needle, lost precious time Every promise broken, every prayer declined Mama said slow down, but i don't have breaks I don’t chase highs, I run from low yo. Mind like a graveyard, heart like stone Love feels distant, trust feels fake So I numb my soul just to feel okay [Chorus] I been livin’ with ghosts in my head Self-made hell, yeah I sleep with the dead Still standin’ here with static in my veins I don’t wanna die, I just wanna feel okay So I blur every truth, yeah I fake what’s real If I make it out, it won’t be clean Just scars, cold nights, and broken dreams [Verse 2] Mirror shows a stranger with my face Same eyes, same sins, different phase I say “one more time,” like I didn’t before Addiction talk sweet, then kicks the door City lights flicker like my will Heart full of rage, head full of pills I pray to nothing, still ask for grace Funny how rock bottom feels like a safe place Seen too many funerals, not enough change Every loss carved deep in my brain They say “stay strong,” like it’s that easy Tryna outrun myself but the past stays with me [Chorus] I been livin’ with ghosts in my head Self-made hell, yeah I sleep with the dead Life’s got claws, addiction’s a leash Still standin’ here with static in my veins I don’t wanna die, I just don’t wanna feel So I blur every truth, yeah I fake what’s real If I make it out, it won’t be clean Just scars, cold nights, and broken dreams [Bridge – screamed or distorted] I’m not a lost cause, I’m a cracked survivor Still breathin’ through the smoke and the fire Pain wrote my name in permanent ink But I’m still here, so I guess I didn’t blink [Outro] Static fades but the scars stay loud I ain’t proud, but I’m still around If hell’s a road, I walked it slow Still standin’—that’s all I know