All i hear is a ringing sound, i do believe my ear is bleeding now.

All i hear is a ringing sound, i do believe my ear is bleeding now. I thought i had Trust once but i lost it never to be found So many scars to be seen i cannot fake this lifes abusive darkest things. I turned to god an he wouldnt even allow me to sleep an if he did all i got were bad memories on repeat 33 years old an i cant say i use my time up in the wisest of ways its asham most days went by with the same suicidal craves plan it out for the later days unless the grim reaper plans to stay plotting out my death wishing there was an easier way to self deploy not wanting to get anyone elses lives put on void nobody helps build me up they just want to see me evaporated into the vary air they breath no clue of me, who yeah i think his name was Anthony.