scared to be in heaven

(Verse 1) Dear God, I'm reaching out, can you hear my pain? Lost in this struggle, feeling trapped in the rain, Father, you left me, now I'm searching for light, In this game of survival, I’m ready to fight. Thoughts of your wisdom echo deep in my mind, Guiding my steps, but I’m feeling so blind, Every lesson you taught, I’m holding them tight, But the shadows surround me, consuming the night. (Verse 2) I miss your voice, the way you broke it down, In a world full of chaos, you wore the crown, Now I'm lost in the hustle, where's the love in the grind? Trying to find my way, but I'm falling behind. I scream to the heavens, can you send me a sign? In this cold-hearted game, I’m just trying to shine, So I write these words, hoping you see, In my heart, I'm still searching for peace, can you be with me?