peace

what kinda of fool have i become. so many times, so many tears, so many years i have wasted. things u cant get back. how i was liveing this life, it made it a hell of fight. always lose skeep at night. doing your best to fight with all your might to get this shit right. even keeping hope in sight. but after years go by ,the light dont look so bright. always on up hill battle, not givein any slack. times i want to give up, throw in towel beside whats use. change cant be changed. its going come, no matter who or where u at. when it does your life will play the opposite role of itself now. whats gud turn bad, if u up u will be knocked down.its like the world its a cycle spinning around, got all mixed up, upside down. just dont brake, you will only be hirtting your self causeing your heart to ack. with every mistake ,i awake. see all the wrongs i have made wishing i can change it everyday.feeled with so much pain, i lay an just waste away. actting like im fine. but on that i stand a thin line with faith .waiting for that day i just dont wake.. for god shake cant u see im begging you to take me from the hell i created. but you dont lisen to me, just these demons whispering you gotta pay. you made it , you live it. thats the way. like only peace i ever get is when im stone. then im in a settle kinda mood. the demons disappear, an i be come homble.when its gone i praying to die again. a cycle that will keep repeating til my dieing day. only then will i be at peace where i lay.