dead inside

Title: November 17th (Dead Inside) (Intro) Yeah… it’s happening again. I can feel you in the wind. Everything changed, man. Everything. [Chorus] The pain, the rain, this life, this game It ain’t the same, and I’m the one to blame Things will never be like they were before We were unstoppable, kicking down the door We was in love, fit snug like a glove, it was You & Me Through thick and thin, way back when, just a memory But now the sky’s turning gray and the tears begin Yeah, it’s happening again. [Verse 1] November 17, 20-20, the calendar froze That was the day that the casket closed After my wife died, I went crazy, went wild Grown man broken down, crying like a child I was smokin’ more dope just hopin’ I would die Lookin’ at the ceiling, asking God, "Why?" I’ve been dead inside for a while, vision getting blurry Crashing down the hill, living life in a hurry Trying to numb the feeling, trying to fill the void Self-destruct button, everything destroyed. [Verse 2] Then the flashing lights came, yeah, I landed in the pen Prison cells, concrete hell, locked up again But the devil wasn't done, nah, he wanted more Three months before I walked out that gate door I got the news on the phone, dropped me to my knees Lost my Grandmother, then my Mom? I can’t breathe Couldn’t say goodbye, couldn’t kiss ‘em on the face Trapped in a cage, stuck in this dark place Vision blurry, tears falling on the steel bars Screaming at the moon, cursing at the stars. [Bridge] (Music strips back—just a heartbeat thump and the guitar) Lord, forgive me for my sins, for the lies Let the old me die, let the new me rise Because Lord, you know I tried, yeah, you know I tried But it’s hard to keep living when you’re dead inside. [Verse 3] But now I pick up this pen and I’m writing it down And I swear I feel your spirit when no one is around I feel you in the wind, helping me from above You’re the angel on my shoulder, guiding me with love So I’m putting down the dope, and I’m picking up the slack For the ones that I lost, there ain’t no looking back The pain is the fuel, the rain washes clean This is the hardest chapter that I’ve ever seen. [Chorus] The pain, the rain, this life, this game It ain’t the same, but I won’t die in vain Things will never be like they were before We were unstoppable, kicking down the door We was in love, fit snug like a glove, it was You & Me Through thick and thin, way back when, just a memory But now the sky’s turning gray and the tears begin Yeah, it’s happening again. (Outro) I feel you in the wind. Rest in Peace. November 17th. Let the old me die.