split fictio

yeah… (low) Two voices in my head… (pause) They don’t get along… (exhale) This that split fiction… (beat fades in) (ad-libs whispered) — “uh” — “yeah…” hook I’m livin’ split fiiiiction (yeah) faith fightin’ my paaast (uh) One hand on the Biiible (amen) one foot on the gaaas (skrrt) Love turn to waaaar (pain) when the trauma relaaapse (don’t leave) I smile through scaaaars (yeah) hope this pain don’t laaast (Lord) I’m livin’ split fiiiiction (uh-huh) demons in disguuise (they lurkin’) Heart full of truuuth (yeah) but I’m numb to the liiies (mm) Tryna stay cleaaaan (clean) while the hunger surviives (still hungry) I pray for the liiight (amen) but I sleep with the niiight (dark) I been torn between growth and the streets that I knooow (yeah) Got demons that whisper like “you owe what you ooowe” (you owe) I ain’t proud of my sins but they taught me the cooode (uh) How to smile in they face while my soul stay froozen (cold) (half-beat pause) I loved wrong, trusted too much, paid dearly in paaaain (facts) Turned my back, still feel chains when I hear certain naaames (don’t say ‘em) PTSD when it rain, I remember the niiiights (rainy nights) When survival was law and forgiveness ain’t riiight (no mercy) I ain’t flex money, I flex discipliiiine (real shit) Hardest fight is winnin’ battles withiiiinn (me) I done slept with my demons, woke up, repented (amen) Still hear ‘em knockin’ when I swear I’m fiiiinished (they knockin’) I don’t chase love, I attract it with scaaars (yeah) If I made it this far, I can make it through daaark (I will) I ain’t perfect, I’m focused — big difference in thaaat (big diff) Still a wolf, just learned when to relaax (growin’) (Double the vocals lightly, more pain) I’m livin’ split fiiiiction (yeah) faith fightin’ my paaast (uh) One hand on the Biiible (amen) one foot on the gaaas (skrrt) Love turn to waaaar (pain) when the trauma relaaapse (don’t leave) I smile through scaaaars (yeah) hope this pain don’t laaast (Lord)