feel Jesus pain

how can I come different on this lyrical intelligence manson yeah they don't know the path I take not thinking bad just think outside the box try more than you can the most had tragic turn into highly fashioned sweetest thing to me to grow an become better than I was do more but do less work don't need credit or validation bc I know lord loves me Jesus knows the world is unsafe they don't give no one a fight chance doesn't matter who you are good or bad or trying do right or trying to change nobody cares what you think bc everyone rase different told different most had rase themselves that hunger an anger grows deep live so long be like dam deep breaths finally finna take trip serving life on planet just serve another life assens gone as flash whatever happens face it doesn't matter anymore still have a good heart regardless all bullshit I had to go through just feel Jesus pain trying warn us before we were about endure some survive some gonna crash out or take there own lives some gonna turn there back on lord some gonna turn over a new leaf change for the better to earn good rewards big goal is to make it to heaven things on earth matter actions depend on where you gonna be place in another life that's all ready stated.