living in the mind

fighting anxiety is like fighting with your destiny feeling like your not good enough nobody likes me, im really ugly when I go out im just full of doubt everytime someone looks at me im convinced their judging me feeling like i can't do nothing fed up of this internal monologue full of horror and negativity It just won't slide i wan it die i wish it was gone feeling like them days of happiness are behind me a spec in the past just floatin past me getin futher and further away until i cant see it no more this is a fucking epiphany its bloody killing me feelin like head is getting worse and worse feelin nothing but dizzy I ain't smoked no glizzies like my life is so heavy I just feel this weight that I cannot shift a continental drift that wont slow down everyday tryin to better myself connect to a higher realm seekin guidance from the great beyond discover my one true self instead of bein stuck on a shelf I wanna move forwards and not go back I wish I knew that magic hack I wanna be free and live my life instead of constantly feeling like im bein stabbed in the back im starting to crack im afraid that I can't go back i wanna live my best life be what I was born to be fuck you fear im truly done with you your not holdin me back anymore this is my time to fight once more