new me

Leaving my girl behind, worst deal I ever made, Sittin' here in treatment, heart heavy, feelin' frayed, Thought I had it all, but I lost my way, Now I'm staring at the ceiling, wishin' for brighter days. Missin' my kids, memories play like a song, Ex-bitch in my mind, can't believe I did her wrong, But I know sobriety's the key, gotta focus, Patience in my veins while I'm fightin' through the hopeless. Life's a battle, every moment's a test, Wrestlin' with demons, I can't let 'em rest, I remember laughter, joy we used to share, Now I'm trapped in this cycle, but I'm fightin' to repair. Every tear that I shed, it's a step to my rise, Gotta break these chains, reachin' for the skies, Holdin' on to hope, I know I’ll find my way, With every breath I take, I’m chasin' a new day. (Verse) No one knows how I feel, I wear this mask tight, Laughing on the surface, but inside it’s a fight, Memories haunt me, shadows in the night, Trying to find the light, but it’s outta my sight. Making music helps, but the pain won’t fade, Every note I drop, it’s a debt that I’ve paid, Alone in this crowd, like a ghost in the shade, Heart heavy as lead, in this silence I wade. Wishing for a moment where the hurt don’t stay, But the echoes of the past keep pulling me away, In a world full of faces, I still feel misplaced, Searching for a refuge, but I’m lost in the race. It’s a battle in my mind, can’t escape this maze, Every laugh a mask, just a part of the play, Trying to find peace, but it’s slipping away, In this melancholic journey, I’m just trying to stay.