Slipping Away

Title: When the Lights Came Back Chorus (1) I was driftin' in the silence, felt the world slip away, Saw my whole life playin’ like a movie on replay. Every face that I loved, every choice that I made, And I woke up to the white walls, shakin’, feelin’ betrayed. Thought I died in that moment, but the truth hit strange— When the lights came back, everything had changed. --- Verse 1 I hit the floor with the bottle still warm in my hand, Heart beat slow like it couldn’t understand. Breath got heavy, colors started meltin’ apart, And the shadows whispered secrets straight into my heart. Verse 2 Felt the cold on my fingers as the world grew dim, Like a doorway opened wide and it swallowed me in. I saw the nights I was lonely, the days I was numb, Heard echoes of the people askin’ why I’d succumb. Verse 3 My childhood flashed—me runnin’ barefoot through rain, Laughin’ with my sisters like nothing knew pain. Then it jumped to my teenage years, fists in the wall, Tryin’ to fight every demon that was watchin’ me fall. Verse 4 I saw Jenny from summer, the girl I loved first, Saw the look in her eyes right before it got worse. Saw my mother cryin’, sayin’ she hoped I’d be strong, Saw myself sayin’ “I’m fine,” when I’d been breakin’ so long. Verse 5 Then I floated above myself laid out on the floor, People bangin’ on the door sayin’, “Please, just one more!” But their voices sounded distant like they weren’t even real, I was stuck between the worlds and I couldn’t even feel. --- Chorus (2) I was driftin' in the silence, felt the world slip away, Saw my whole life playin’ like a movie on replay. Every face that I loved, every choice that I made, And I woke up to the white walls, shakin’, feelin’ betrayed. Thought I died in that moment, but the truth hit strange— When the lights came back, everything had changed. --- Verse 6 Then a bright flash hit me, like lightning in snow, And the memories stopped runnin’, nowhere left to go. I woke up in a bed with straps tight on my wrist, Nurses talkin' quiet like they were afraid I'd resist. Verse 7 My voice cracked dry as I asked where I was, They said, “You scared us to death—your heart nearly paused.” I stared at the ceiling, lights flickerin’ slow, Tryin’ to piece together how far I’d let myself go. Verse 8 White walls all around me felt colder than death, And I listened to the rhythm of the monitors' breath. My mind still floatin’, couldn’t tell what was real, Was this life? Was it limbo? Was I stuck in a wheel? Verse 9 Then the doctor walked in, eyes heavy with truth, Said, “You overdosed hard, but your body pulled through. We brought you here for safety, to help you repair.” But I felt like a ghost that had woken to air. Verse 10 I took a breath full of terror, but also full of chance, Like the universe had paused just to give me a glance. I saw death in the doorway, but it let me retreat— And I vowed in that moment I’d get back on my feet.