okay its me again on the mic its comin off my dome man im not n no mood for the b.s my head is always on the go im tire

okay its me again on the mic its comin off my dome man im not n no mood for the b.s my head is always on the go im tire mentally physically emotionally im not in the mood for the bs my dawg fuck this shit my head spinning an spinning idk wtf to do any more i feel like giving up but when i close my eyes i see my three lil angels that god sent to me n i realize i cant give up n it makes me mad bc i want to but i cant im holding in strong for my babies bc at the end of the day they make my days they r the reaon y im striving so hard an do right god taking me down some rds idk if they r lessons or blessings right now i guess we will see at the end of this journey if its a blessing or a lesson i jus cant wait for my mood to switch up every one saying keep ur head up n smile every things goin to b ok but the way I'm feeling its not okay for me but it might b ok for u yall dont understand how hurt i am from the way my life playing out n my babies crying to me bc they want a better life have u ever have to live some were with barely no water barely no electricity for ur babies specially on them long cold dark nights were u got to bundle them up to keep them warm if not step tf back out of my face its seems like the devil trying to take me and our heavenly father is sayin no neva u strong im letting u go down this rd bc u can handle it n im like no father please please help me guide me to the right rd im tired i cant do it no more please please hear me lord I sit n the car by myself n i cry i dont let no one see me cry im tired of bein fake happy 😁 i want to b happy n kids living right I'ma get there soon jus got to get out the mood im n an push that devil away from me n mines