recovery

u told me you loved me. you told me if i change an do as the courts asked. we would be back together. you lie, u never planned on comeing back. four years i held on to that promise. day in day out , wishing i was dead crying til my eyes bleed. haveing to stay wasted just make the pain go away. i was liveing in hell for a lie. progressing in the things that was ask of me. i even put my self with out just cause you needed. so i went with out. nothing i was doinng made a damn. i had to open my eyes an see passed lies an truth was shown.we ounce was never be again. now im decideing to accept that realaty an transfrom my self to the man of your dreams, haveing the nicer things in life.climbing to top. you will want to come back to me but its to late for thatr .i cant go bac.k. i want look back. im headed to top. im not going stop. wishing u could been apart of it but you made you choose an you are going have to live with it. cause now , i have buried my feelings deep down. dont want them around anymore. try to forget all times we shared.now im to piont i dont even care if we ever make it back each other. but one day you going wish you been there when i needed you most.