spasms inside my mind remind me to hide my outer layer from seepin in to becomin the hater i have been and growin tired

spasms inside my mind remind me to hide my outer layer from seepin in to becomin the hater i have been and growin tired of listening and glistening ever so pressured loud steam knocking engine release exhaust , seconds of time addin up to a loss never never will i gain never never will i sustain pain without facin a storm with a tornado train of hail thorns bristles and bushes cut up in the tissues of my veins pushin and pushing the pushes threw the stem of whats cracked up to be a norm stress hells dorm heaven awaiting my knock at the door while im being dragged agaginst the floor pedal to the metle my demons i cant ignore my darkness at the shore lastmeasure of defence alamo line deni sayin im fine youll never never mind my mind youll only mind what your mind minds