nothing to gain

what do i have to do to prove to you i have change whom i was those demons no long process this temple of mine. the man i was is dead an gone. i had it all fucked up. it seemed like everything i touch went to shit. never no matter how much i tried i always end up getin the shitty side of every situation. lost, confused an dont know what to fo. i push for better but still i dont ssee no hope of anything better how something is always keeping you done. feeling like your going drown. falling deeper in a black whole feeling so cold .loseing contro. becomeing a monster someone i dont know. this world has done got me so low. feeling like stick dynamite suck in my chest, im bout blow. distruction seems to be all i know. now i see all i did is lose one set of demons for a whole new set ones.damn if you do, damn if you dont. tell me whats fucking use.. but i stand tall deal with shit cones along, staying jucied,alway high head in clouds is only way im able make it by. heart full pain, but not it seem to gain. eyes full tears makes hard see clear. a vioce full pain still nobody recognize anything how can this world be so distrained. which excuse you going to clam. the reseason you didnt take action when world was going done drain. you just want to piont your fingers an blame.