sometimes life cuts like a knife

I'm destroying my life and money favorite powerful the people who love me turn the backs on me now I'm on my own 21 years old I really don't know how to feel it hurts me the most I thought I had it all inside my head I'm fighting demons now I'm trying to fight back just a scripts just a fine but I'm trying to make it fed if I could go back in time I fix my mistakes but to reality so I fell here now I'm skipping first to first in the field because life hurts too bad