NOT OK

Oh I hate taking to myself out loud but in my head I just can’t seem to figure things out. Oh like how. I don’t want to sit here all alone. But I get anxiety at the thought of simply picking up my phone. And I know. that we just talked yesterday. I was okay. But today it seems like my minds playing tricks on me. Oh no. Like it’s not safe. And why does my heart feel like it wants to runaway. Oh I just hate how sometimes love feels so unsafe.