rolling through the motions

sometimes I feel the sky is falling down trying to find my place in this world without me it keeps spinning around chest full of pressure i feel bad about myself not to count that people keep trying to make me feel lesser it's time for me to take hold of everything i ever been told and make a difference in my life and remold it the cold shoulder so many times i been showed it feelings and emotions I overflow with looking to the sky's asking God what did I do to make me go through this been through so much that I walk around with closed fist aggravation with people's occupations with bad intentions not to mention that my childhood makes me carry bad indentations that makes me make bad decisions been stabbed in the back so many times I have incisions on the road from the broken cold to the riches real mother f***** from the streets I don't deal with snitches counting through the memories in my head like pictures me getting it right or wrong who would figure the one day I'd have to pull the pistol and fill them with the trigger does that make me a lesser man or does it make me bigger I can count on my fingers how many times I done lost my mind staying up all night can't sleep got a grind the times in my mind that I wish I could rewind begging the Lord to take care of me I know I didn't always do right on the streets but sometimes you got to eat when you got to eat and you shuffle your feet when you shuffle your feet if it was up to me I never would have missed a beat people just don't take me seriously they just stare at me so curiously if you're feeling f****** froggy then leap I only keep it real with my peeps keep talking and I'll make you eat your goddamn teeth best thing for you to stay out of arms reach I used to be nice and they called me preach but now I'll leave your dead in the seats well who cares who will be there everything in this f****** life it ain't Fair most of your pussies talk hard but run scared