Mood Disorder

Feeling so good all the way on top Hoping this feeling will stay never stop So Full of energy times 3 Getting shit done productivity Having full open communication No problem with deep conversations Cleaning the house im organized Myself I barely recognize I like how i feel ill take this version Feeling so good who is this person I'm thinking things will finally change Start a new chapter turn the page And then suddenly just as fast As I went up I come down and crash My heart races attack by panic Thats what happens when you are manic Mania anxiety sadness and depression Wont leave my head alone Think things could change but i learned my lesson Always Going through a cycle it really takes its toll Wish i could turn off my mind but I don't have full control In the morning i feel like i cant get out of bed Too many thoughts are playing inside my head Sorry I just can't pick up the phone I just want to here all day alone Don't even want to go outside How am I supposed to thrive in this life Ill probably sit here all day and cry Don't even know the reason why My Feelings are all negative No more of myself I have to give Just want to give up no will to try It's beautiful out but I just stay inside Wish I could take these feelings and suppress them That's what happens when you have depression Why can't I be normal like everybody else These are the cards I was given the hand I was dealt Some Days i'm way up other days im down My heads in a circle always going around Wish I could stop it but it's not on purpose Happy on the outside but under the surface I feel pain and confusion like I'm backed In a corner Thats what its like to have a mood disorder Mania anxiety sadness and depression Wont leave my head alone Thought things could change but I learned my lesson Always Going through a cycle and it really takes its toll Wish I could turn off my mind but I don't have full control I feel pain and confusion like I'm backed Into a corner That's what happens when your dealing with a mood disorder