speak out be heard

id rather adjust the setting in future time instead im stuck with dilusional thohghts in the back of my own mind . wish i could go way back to the way we once used to be when everything matterd and the way u smiled so independently, i stare at the walls till i justpass the fk out ,thinkn i could change history instead im chokn on the thoughts of the day you walked the fk on out. mayb it was only because i did nutn but scream and shout,while you were crying ur eyes out i was spent turnt the fk up,so i leave u with kindness and praise Hoping what life ghrow ats u u find ur long lost way n finnaky find ur soul, instead ur a ghost,but this aint no trick or treat...yet out in these sticks catching heat.stop looking fur defeat kindky taje yr seats this is only my retreat stay up never down head of this class room not the existing clown..feeling exhausted from walking up n down same ol streets over 70000 mikes yet still on theses worn out feet...i aint lookn to get defeat .. they say ive lost my mind yet i still.make waves, i get the best of them while paving my own way.. i sit up way past hoyrs of dark ,thats when I come alive and make my makers mark born in game if legends and i crumble at the very top ...its a one stop hop if yal! readyto shop i layed all the fkn statistics yet you all stumble calling me sadistic im onky guven bk as once recieved ,yall takn shots at my ass n still i aint retreat .. im commin as i am wirhoyt suit n armor guards gona take out the dope and shoot it strauggt up boobalie boos ass never pass on the gd grass will shelter ever call it quits gt me out here in nomans land my brains goin on the fritz wanna test my knowlehde with pain ,as i see it its only more life ive gained , u see u can never tare down any wallls that ive built, mayb ignorance mayb just sum fkn guilt need to get off this trip i be on mayb actually put away the god dam crayons cause im runnjng outt time in the end yall see i was right in my own sadistic mind maybe one day we will see eye to eye,but that games two of us not one thats sits bk and believes their own lies while others sigh n crie maybe the works of love n hate are only conversations for the whole world to hate cause people are fake with their own fate in suffocation fk it im done remininising when i shoukd be spending time with my other significance peace out