Young Mac Eagle & Yanay - שומר עליי

Lyrics translation to English: Verse 1 - Yanay I haven't looked myself in the eye in years, A black cloud has always hung over me And all the time I fight it, but it's a little heavy on me, Too heavy, heavy on me. I wish there was someone there to watch over me, Watch over me, watch over me. Surely they see all the complexes about me, all the promises, all the insurance all the grades I got in high school, zeros and a few zeros, all the fake friends, I turned worlds upside down and then learned my lessons, today I'm not on it if I didn't cut pieces, blind to my success and there's no way to explain it Chorus - Yanay I felt like a fool every time I saw my brother, I wanted to make my parents calm like he did, I never really managed to do that and my dad knew how to get mad at me, I just wanted to make him stop getting mad, I ended up feeling like a fool and got mad at myself, I didn't really manage or know how to get the words out of my mouth I closed my eyes every time I got the mirror in front of my face. I haven't looked myself in the eye in years, a black cloud was always hanging over me and all the time I fight it but it's a bit heavy on me, too heavy, heavy on me. I wish there was someone out there watching over me, watching over me, watching over me. Verse 2 - Yanay When my brother graduated from high school, I was still in the middle of high school I would look at him with insecurity, Looking at my diploma made me depressed, I would prefer to walk around the hallway In classes during breaks I was the first to be afraid, I know You would look at me in shock, I made my parents ashamed I am not a hundred, Not ninety, not even 20, Let's not even start talking about how I feel, it's crazy There was a time I would hang out with people who take advantage of me and just because they are with me I say thank you There was a time I would call people I don't like and invite them so I wouldn't be alone Everyone wants to be accepted And whoever doesn't succeed You will probably find him on the side I was such a bull chasing fake love Everything is fake, it's hallucinations I saw people talking to me like their brother Even though they think I'm an idiot I wanted to succeed in one thing To solve for myself All the complexes, maybe to solve all the problems for myself I just wanted, like my brother, for my mother to see me finish my high school diploma And then I was drawn to weed, to alcohol, to parties, to friends who would leave you to suffer to girls that I tried most of the time to achieve but it never went well for me I was drawn to the feeling of fake security to turn up my nose to feel strong even though I don't feel strong Actually, my brother, everything is a game, I'm a good player I was exactly who you think you'd like him to be Verse 3 - Sky For years I was the sheep that didn't go to the barn Everyone went somewhere at the same frequency And if you were lucky today, they made a mess Because I fell into the pit and no one came with a rope but.. I managed to reach the top I managed to be me even when you laughed at me like some fucking crazy person I keep the house and I keep my figure So I'm a quiet kid in class, because I don't hear the haters anymore You know, That the Creator God determines The real test of life is with a maturity score You either throw a rope or you fall to your death But hey, I'm not one to ever give up This whole world is against me I continue to live with good taste Everything is fake and you're not close Only talking about love today Hatred hurts Everyone is only good in the shadow of evil Because the real place in the heart is only your place Don't let anyone You are the one who succeeded, it's yours and yours alone Standing here on the sidelines and laughing at every jealous or dick And crying will turn into laughter later in the day