Watched and Judged

Ive always had this fear of being watched.... Judged by those not equal to the strength of my pot... But you got more shit to do man, dont just sit up in your room and, repeat repeat repeat, its just the same shit man, control, alt, delete. Imma just go off the sheet! Dont make me lose all my sleep! I been done with these fools, im on my feet! Im just tryna be good on time with the beat, dont let me loosen up. Ive been in trouble with some major struggles, thought i was abused enough... not physically but mentally, I got enough years with that i could go to university, ive been thirsty for the feeling that makes you calm, and not worry, but i feel like im never worthy, but i know im surely pretty wordy with the words see? Its a word search, with my brain it hurts me. Tryna think of anything else except the real shit that exerts me! Its an even worse scene, if you steppin too a word smith, i got the tools that made you motherfuckers regret what you heard bitch, enough with the bird shit, Im coming for this throne and i wont miss.. Wheather you throw fists, just know this, no way your ever gonna know what a throne is. You dug ya hole bitch, go get ya bone, gone, git.. Basically im just gonna spit, till i throw up from no breath, that or a whole 5th, fucking kidding dont get at me, i just get to havin fun rappin..