keep loseing

see all I ever wanted is to make to top. not for fam, not for glory, but for that groop, big face bengwrmins is all I ever wanted. didn't care how it came, what ever I had do, any means nessacry was how I rolled. wide open , hot head, damn can't see how I never got shoot. found dead. didn't take long I made name for myself subside Phil, I got that name cause I do shit other wouldn't do , straoght up shit that many man is scard to do.. shit that make other take life.i was a fool, but I thought I was Kool. running around any town braking all the rule, . feeling like demon god, I can take on it all. I'm lost the fear of someone takeing my life , takeing it all away. I feel I have nothing left loose. only thing that hangs around is blues. I'm always in my head, planning next move ,calculating my chances of makeing it thougth.. asking myself is it worth it. an i keep coming up with same answer I have nothing lose. see it's been like this for years.got me thinking this might be my path ,that I was chosen to be on. cause when I fight it, no matter how hard I push I can't get back up, not even with a hope an prayer. so many days I cried my eyes out to see better days, still I wait. loseing hope more everyday can't get no peace losing sleep. got me thinking this what it is for me. this is how my life end. homeless an alone it's takeing me on road so drake an cold. I have lost who I am , can't even re.inber the man i am. I'm beating down an broke. angry, confused. straight sick an tired of loseing. what happen to me. this not my life style. I never lose I carry that win.. I would never accepted this shit. old age is makeing me turn in to fool. try be humble, try make change. steady lose along way everyday.