counting ✓checks & not Xmarks...

I'm lost y'all I thought I already paid the cost  and I'm losing my mind running out of time   I'm far behind on my  female prime exhausted but I just can't quit everyday I got to come up with it one way or another another....p When  times are hard an it gets too be a lil to much and I feel like giving up, I remember why I started in the first place ya heeard me I Remember how I crossed boundaries for this life that  Iv lived and I'm trying my damnest to get out of it..... Ya see when I was a kid I used to skip class and catch rides with strangers for this made me who I am today I'm not perfect & iv Broken a couple church rules, I do admit but I Did  it Just so I could fill the empty void in my heart I Did it just so I can start counting checks not x marks ..