I don't know what to do

I can't sleep I'll tell you why it l allt kind of shiti have to do before I die I sitting here just wasted of time away I don't know what the f*** to do because I'm going to go crazy this is not where I'm supposed to be I supposed to be looking over my 5 Star company I supposed to have been made bills I know I have a sacks of bills but s*** isn't really right I don't know how I got here is not right I try to put your finger it's not at me but I guess that's the only way to see so where you f***** up I did what I had to do I raise my kids they all grown and on their own but now it's just don't seem like I'm supposed to be where I'm at right now I feel like I fell f****** do