regret

Leeds and shanks, this city’s my home, Walk around with a sense of authority, apologies mean nothing to me, don’t have room for mistakes, get out my face, do my deals without a trace, police chase me but you can’t catch me, Life’s a game, but the stakes stay high, Rolling with the crew, never let it slide by, Heart full of pain, but the hustle can’t die. Got my eyes on the prize, watch my haters comply, my love is not something you can just brush off. pause, the laws can’t stop me, from the council flats to the cold, dark blocks, Dreams in the night, but the worlds in a box, talks on the street come about to me, Thoughts in the heat bring a doubt on me, Caught in a beat, moving cautiously, honestly I just don’t give a damn what they got on me, Speak on my name, but it’s all just a fallacy reality is hard to grasp, past experience catchin’ up to me, loyal to the soil, where the real ones stand, With a shank in my pocket, and the truth in my hand, makin’ half a grand in a day, you wish, but just stay away, they want to see you rise, but they pray on your fall, small boy said he can’t call. wall painted in blood what did I do? Stared at the truth, but avoided the view, Left with the guilt that I couldn’t undo, two people in the room but only one standin’, I mean, why did I do it? what did I feel? was it all worth it or was it just a broken deal, kneel on the floor, looking for life, knife in the chest, how’d I do it? truth on my tongue, yeah I knew it, Hands won’t stop shaking- I didn’t mean to do it, I replay the moment over and over, wishing i could just disappear, their eyes won’t leave me, I still hear their voice begging me when i close my eyes, wise old man says im daying, dying inside, but no one sees the war that i hide, wish i could just go back, man im sorry, I should’ve stopped but my conscience was driving me, when I’m dreamin’ it all rewinds, it’s torture I wish I had died, I’m sorry.