Right back on the streets

It's been so hard, I always face these types of situations. Feeling like I'm losing control. No one told me it would be easy but Jehovah is watching from heaven. and knows. God always tests me. i'm too weak to understand his wonderful wisdom. Now I look in the mirror and see something like a kingdom. I can't say my headache is gone, but I'm pretty sure life isn't bingo. This is the jungle that's why they call me King Kong. Honestly I wake up in the morning with the pressure in my head. what? i got the gun in back pocket the razor in my left, oh no the nine on my waist . i don't wanna be like that. if i gotta pop, gotta murder you with 22 shots, that means a crazy situation. forgive me for the way I'm talking, I just dont wanna be bad.