Okay First Things First

It's freaky., how the world will always judge you. It aint nothing but ridicules and continuous betrayal, so fuck it. I have been sufferin in this storm like a tornado spun through. I used to cope thru codependency, but now thats done too. Time put the nail and the hammer on the head, I'm unscrewed. Like i said, nevertheless been alone still with those whos untrue., . But my best friends all died, so lately i just sit around like FUCK YOU. And make sure give no fucks too. I wish i could just uproot, like FUCK DUDE. I damn near wanting to ask God, can i be please be next, i cant even trust myself, but in my heart, i still feel like i can trust you. I get choked up thinkin details of memories i can't help but remember. My suicide awareness month is year round, not just September. I no longer fake like im happy, im happier when not pretendin. And cause yall are so far away in this place called heaven, i felt it was just bout damn time that i sent a letter. Dont forget me, i hope yall know ill never forget ya. And when reunited, yall and i will dance forever since God had always intended intensity with his intentions. So with his effort, and in his attention, i remain attentive, to show reasons to treat life like it is indigestion. Such simple depiction, caused from simple depression. Watching people continuously suffer, and miss out on heaven. Lets figure this the fuck out, lets consider our suggestions. Cause if i miss out reuniting with my dead loved ones, ill snatch your soul like grim reaper, ill turn evil, my power grows while your soul detoriates, wont power up, just lessens. So heres my lesson, im addressing every good or bad ive ever mentioned. Im like a trickle charge, meaning slowly tryna build currency, but whats shocking is the currents i was drowning in were not electric. Give no current fucks. Cause currently, currency is supposedly our investment. Preferably id just like to be in the prescence of my bestfriends who died in my opinion TOO SOON, so i slowly wait for my destiny as i ascend to another dimension. What if life on Earth was purgatory, would it mean that heaven technically was full control of having your soul? What if earths where you go when heavens heros die, and if thats the case, do they get sent back or do they elevate to the lower level, regardless why, aka the devil. But kinda wish that, things weren't mixmatched. In fact, maybe hell is where i originated with this big blast. Yeah thats my big bang. And to me i been thinkin hell simply is that. The technical definition from theories accumulated refer to Big Bang Theory as basically witchcraft. inattention