Surviving

Surviving Verse 1: Batteling all my thoughts felt the walls start caving in Fighting with the demons prayed that God would save my sins Searching for survival fear of not knowing how to live Hope my family can forgive me and let me be part again Chorus: Mom im so sorry I put you through hell When I was trying to love I really hated myself Through all the tough times I kept pushing down Was drowning in darkness and tried to get out Verse 2: All the sleepless nights and it led me back to you Praising for your glory and to simply be renewed Sitting at the alter crying out for the Lord to pull me through How'd I end up right back here bottle in my hand what can I do Chorus: Mom I'm so sorry I put you through hell When I was trying to love me I really hated myself Through all the tough times I kept pushing down Was drowning in darkness and tried to get out ooooohhh no where to turn im fighting for you to stay and you just fade away yeaa ohhh And I'm breaking down just wanna be free from this does the disappearance make me not exist.. Chorus: Mom im so sorry I put you through hell When I was trying to love I really hated myself Through all the tough times I kept pushing down I hope you forgive me I promise I will get help