Touch the top

#SecurityMoney only wanna fly so I can touch the top, niggas throwing shade just to stir the pot, but ima just forgive just like Jesus taught, appreciate the pain know I earned my spot! Like heck I fought, for evrything I have,my mind, full of smoke and hash, and im, flying like Dutchman, free from the chains that I would’ve rusted, in, heaven sent, that’s how she had me feeling, trapped up in those eyes, wrapped my heart and then she sealed it, but the devil taint those eyes cuz they were so deceiving, covered up her lies, if only I could see them, Free my soul, cuz even after that, she still got hold, she tried to win me back, well dang she bold, she said I love you still, the lies get old, trust me? Girl my trust is killed! The lies they filled, my urge kill, myself, pop a pill, and hope to feel, a lot less, make me numb,cuz I’m just done, I did my best. Getting super close to putting bullets in my chest, bullets pierce my breasts, is there any other ways to help this pain that you suggest? Turn to god, I heard those words, that’s when I was blessed! I take these late nights and clear my mind, shooting baskets in the dead of night, God holds my soul, and he gives me light, even when my wrists were bleeding I’d still write, im a imperfect man, from the apple I bite, like eve, tho I got me many goals, I know that I’ll achieve, everything I set my mind on, with Jesus as my king I make vow that I am no pawn, to these demons in my head atleast, I give all glory to God, the one true reason i am still alive! I only wanna fly so I can touch the top, niggas throwing shade just to stir the pot, but ima just forgive just like Jesus taught, appreciate the pain know I earned my spot, I only wanna fly so I can touch the top