is forever as long as never ?

how long is forever is it as long as never uncertainty is certainly hurting me from growing attempt to be assertive eagerly am showing my hand poker face isn't that great cuz of the mind I have the kind a man i am aint afraid to show my pain not sure of how much more pressure I can take cried myself a river cried my self a lake now time to take control overthe reigns and regain who i am as a man shine bright in this land bare witness to who I am I roam this land up under the sun let me be the one to show you all how it could be done we already know who won even though they just prolong the inevitable watch me glow watch me grow as I flow so full of life yeah light me up ingnight the flame watch it flare yes I care oh beware papa bear oh dont dare attempt to get in my way now if ever I aint playing so trust me when im saying dont ingage you dont want to feel my rage stemming from lost days we will never get back in haze cant live in the past matter a fact all we got is the present moment in and out of craze dazed states I just want to get back and able to play can't wait it'll be great show em the ways of my morals belifes vicariously live thru em so that can be the best version of me that I got to give accomplish everthing I could have if I were a kid again and was giving the knowledge have to give is golden it's golden holding the secret to a abundant wealthy plentiful life yeah thats right got them jewels got the tools and wamt to past down a legacy of positivity break the cycle of poverty already got it in pocket yeah watch and see will achieve status of a trillionare yeah thats me the first multimillionaire but not the last money flowes to me easily and effortlessly like a magnet in this sea alchemy the midas touch yeah have it but also have bad habits just know that I'll grab it whats rightfully mine you must be outta your mind if you think I'm just going to let it slide with my life you think you can play well no way the risky choice you made now look what they say its a eulogy better you so long as me and mine in the end are fine the audacity it blows my mind oh well all we have is time infinite untill we get it go on quit it