better than the rest

i don't know what to do here i have fear year after year i just try to get by on my own i have shown that i come up to bat to hit life out of the park but it's a stark reality that the fallacy of living is only given to those who chose the right road to carry the heavy load but i didn't do right i tried to fight against the system that's corrupt i try to interrupt the pattern that's shattered so many lives i only get bys on my wit i try to get what is owed to me my living is free but i can't find that place in my mind that knows best better than all of the rest the thought is clear that living in fear is only one way to go it's better to show than to tell i fell hard but picked me up again so i can try to win at this game called life without all the strife that i feel is so real inside of my mind but now is the time to rewind and take another look don't judge a book by the cover there is no one other that can break these chains while it starts to rain in my head i don't want to wind up dead because of the lies i just get bys every day there is a way to be better than yesterday you just have to try and i don't lie things will change it's just a little strange how it happen i just start rappin and all of my problems melt away on this day i say i will make amends to just get by