explain to me

I'ma get mine and just fly, left with no good bye,to , in my mind,I cry,like , sent her a text,one time, if we could go back to the past, I'd have you strip down and dance, she said the feelings caught on too fast take hit till I'm high,drift off to the past what happened to that love rest in peace, god damn,now I wonder girl where you at feel myself missing her tears fall heart,cant even look in the mirror death starts to appear just got out from doing years,angels on my shoulder but the devils in my ear, waiting to make an entrance,so haters be ware,fell in live with this chick that didnt fucken care,now I'm feeling better getting money every where, conversations are more like truth or dare, when she broke my heart,felt like suffercation I was running out, I couldn't breath,couldn't sleep, couldn't believe,opened up the door my heart,to let her,just to watch her leave,love is blind It couldn't see, what this chick had done topp me,so I guess I'll just fucken let it1 to be,cuz I was down for awhile,got back on my feet,fake smiles,fake smiles,back to way I was,drugs to numb, maybe oding not enough, I still wonder what fuck,im o. that gangsta lean mean I need a hug was,heard you became nurse girl thats whats up,m