Want/Need (Half Song)

V1 But didn't you know all these words could never express All the things that I feel on the inside But lips lie, like when her hips grind betray me with a kiss like Judas did I'm just trying to live and let live, but I don't really feel alive; am I livin anymore? I've been lookin out the window Even though I've been feeling blind But the pain is real and I can't close my eyes Pull the curtains closed for the last time Is this the last time, last call God, do you hear me when I cry I've been callin you askin why But my real eyes have only been seeing real lies Living by the motto do or die But life has got me demoralized I'm just trying to be immortalized Here let me put on a good disguise See my smiling when I hate how I feel inside Wish I could stop the clock like a jump shot The youth has been cocking glocks Out here trying to make the world's heart stop I just hope another innocent life don't get dropped Hook: Seeking what we think we need But what we want and what we need Ain't the same thing Your bling won't shine when you six feet Underneath the dirt, guess we go back to being underground I'm just trying to hard to turn this life around Like an angry dad who has to turn the car around Which is what I've been trying to do with my frown V2: I don't wanna be in the spotlight I just wanna have a good life And maybe have a pretty wife With a kid I can pass my knowledge too But the ledge has been callin me Saying "go ahead and jump, no one will miss you" But I can't seem to bring myself too Cuz I refuse to let my mental health dictate my moves Where are friends when you need em I ain't never need em, I just wish I could see em But a fake life they chasing like how alcoholics chase booze And even when I bled my blood ran from me too Yeah, I see you even when it seems like I dont Thinking that your life is to hard to get through But you can make it through but you gotta believe too And can't let the pressure and people break you Cuz that's what they will seek to Do when you questioning everything Just pray up to God And He will see you through Saying and believing are two different things so don't get em confused Sometimes you gotta light your own fire You a lit fuse And you feel like your damaged from all of your abuse But you gotta know that shit dont define you