pain in disguised

I’m counting all my wins, but the silence still stings, Got a pocket full of dreams, but they don’t come with wings, In a room full of faces, but I’m lost in the crowd, Got my head in the clouds, but I’m screaming out loud. (Verse 2) Late nights, city lights, but the vibe feels off, Every laugh that I hear, man, it cuts like a scoff, Success on the surface, but inside, I’m a ghost, Chasing shadows of love, man, that’s what hurts the most. (Verse 3) Scrolling through the ‘Gram, see the smiles on display, But behind every filter, there’s a price we don’t pay, Feeling like a king, but I’m trapped in my throne, Yeah, feeling alone is a different kind of unsuccessful tone. (Verse 4) Pour another drink, but it don’t ease the pain, Got the world at my feet, but I’m caught in the rain, Reflections in the mirror, can’t escape what I see, Lonely at the top, man, this weight is on me. Smile now, cry later, that’s the script I’m livin’, Masked up in the laughter, but inside I'm still grievin’. Chasin’ dreams, but the shadows keep on creepin’, Success in the light, but the darkness got me seepin’. Heart heavy with the weight, but I wear it like a crown, Caught between the highs, but the lows keep me down. Friends turn to ghosts, like they vanished in the night, Tryna keep my head clear, , Every smile’s a story, every tear’s an arrangement. Reflections in the mirror, see the pain in my eyes, They say I’m on the rise, but I’m trapped in disguise. Livin’ in the moment, but the past won’t let go, Every laugh's a reminder of the hurt that I know. Still I rise like the sun, even when it gets colder, Smile now, cry later, that’s the weight on my shoulder.