thrill of you

I wrote this song because I was seeing this guy for some time, but told me he couldn’t love me. I seen him at bar, he was wasted and tried to kiss me. I told him no, and to go home. He yelled at me in the middle of the bar. I kinda liked it💀 He still won’t talk to me, and ended up getting a girlfriend, and I’ve been trying to forget about him. But I can’t. I kinda of been using more alcohol, and never really sleeping. So here’s my first song… Lyrics (Verse 1) Hit the bar, vibe check, feelin’ kinda fly, Eyes on me, but I wasn’t shy, Order a drink, then I catch his glance, Next thing I know, he’s callin’ me out, no chance. "Hey girl, what you doin’? This ain’t your scene," His voice like fire, bitter but keen, Never thought I'd thrill at a guy so mean, Heart racing fast, like I’m caught in a dream. (Chorus) He yelled at me, but it lit that spark, Got me feelin’ wild, like a shot in the dark, But when he walked away, left me feelin’ blue, Now I'm stuck thinkin' 'bout the thrill of you. (Verse 2) Flash of a smile, then a stormy frown, His words cut deep, but they turned me around, Never had a vibe that could crack me like that, His anger like a magnet, I’m drawn to the stat. But when the night fades, and the drinks run dry, He wiped me out, like a low down lie, Never meant to catch these feelings in the flames, Now I'm sittin’ here, lost in my own games. (Chorus) He yelled at me, but it lit that spark, Got me feelin’ wild, like a shot in the dark, But when he walked away, left me feelin’ blue, Now I'm stuck thinkin' 'bout the thrill of you. (Bridge) Why’d you have to say it? Why’d you have to go? Now I'm stuck replayin' every word you throw, Maybe I’m a masochist, crave the edge of pain, But your absence feels like a storm, like rain. (Outro) So here’s to the night when you made me feel, Yelling got me high, oh, it felt so real, But now it’s just silence, and I’m here all alone, Wonderin' if you even think of me when you moan. Guess I’ll drown my sorrows, sip another drink, Heart heavy with thoughts, there's so much to think, From the bar to the dark, a connection gone wrong, But that thrill in the chaos, yeah, that’s where I belong.