Life choices part 2

(verus1)Lost my brother to the shadows, he took that leap, Momma gone in a flash, now I'm drowning in this deep, Life’s a game of chess, but I’m stuck on the board, Every move I make, it cuts like a sword. pp(Verse 2 Another brother laid cold, wrapped in that crime, Streetlights flicker, but I’m blind to the shine, Heart heavy with the weight, can’t escape this pain, Searching for the answers, but it’s all in vain. (Verse 3 Nightmares haunt me, demons creeping in my mind, Trust is dead, loyalty’s hard to find, Pouring out this liquor for the ones I miss, In a world so dark, can’t remember bliss. (Verse 4 Every tear I shed, like a drop in the sea, Life’s a twisted story, and it’s written for me, Keep the circle tight, but the walls closing in, In this game of survival, it’s hard to pretend. While Staring at the ceiling, dreams turning to dust, (vers5) Empty pockets, cold nights, lost in the rust, Homies counting stacks, but they don’t see the grind, Got a vision in my mind, but they’re blind to the signs. (vers6) Hustle hard, but the streets don’t show love, Watching them flex while I’m stuck in the mud, Used to share food, now they act like they grown, Broke on the corner, feeling all alone. Every dollar spent, they don’t know the pain, (verus6) Got a heart full of hunger, but they just entertain, I’m drowning in the silence, while they laugh in the light, Dark thoughts creeping in, can’t escape this night (vers8). Friends turned ghosts, when the struggle gets real, Money’s a chain, but they don’t know the deal, I’m grinding in the shadows, fighting for my hope, But every time I reach out, I’m just hanging by a rope. versu 9)Stomach growling, kids hungry, got no time to remember. Best friend turned to a target, trust shattered like glass, Had to make a choice, man, survival’s a ruthless path. (Verse 10 ) Thoughts racing, demons whispering, “Do what you gotta do,” Counted every dollar, every promise I outgrew. Used to share dreams, now I’m plotting on his stash, Dark alley deals, hope this karma don’t come back. (Verse 11) Eyes wide, guilt heavy, but the hunger don’t lie, Every moment I regret, but I’m just trying to get by. In the depths of my soul, I feel the weight of my sins, Robbed my best friend just to feed my kids, where it begins. (Verse 12) Trust broken, loyalty lost, can’t rewind the clock, Every choice that I made, man, it’s a heavy rock. But for my little ones, I’d walk through hell and back, In this dark game of life, it’s survival, (Verse 13) Streets whisper secrets, shadows in the night, Every choice I make, got me grippin' tight, Lost a couple homies, they chose the wrong side, Now I’m livin' with the weight, can’t run, can’t hide . (Verse 14) Pistol on my lap, yeah, it’s part of the plan, Life’s a chess game, but I’m stuck in the sand, Trust is a luxury, and pain’s the cost, Every step I take, feelin' like I’m lost. (Verse 15) Dreams flicker dim, like the streetlight glow, Chasin’ after hope, but it’s hard to let go, Choices that I made, they echo in my mind, Darkness in my soul, can’t leave it behind. (Verse 16) Countin' all my scars, like they trophies of war, Every lesson learned, but I’m hungry for more, Life's a heavy burden, but I carry the load, In this game of fate, I’m just searchin' for code.