Spitting that overcoming Bullshit Part 1

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been trying to squabble up making up for lost time lost through my memory with my mom & pop my brain erased what happened to protect me from the stuff the violence that pushed me to shut my mouth and zip my lips 💋 shit trying for decades to cover up then I got stuck a deer in the headlights masking it and all the shit I tried to cover up with getting good grades turning lemons into lemonade until the sun could no longer maintain its brightness as the shade no matter how hard I tried to fight it proved it was time for the storm to brew dark clouds forming and locusts swarming like the apolocalypyse... year after year the darkness rose until I began to expose those who perpetrated and persecuted me with violence manipulation and abuse I was halfway shook & scared to look at who I really was but could no longer face the misery of what was my past that life in the fast lane Who the he'll came to save me when the people who raised me had chosen not to forgive themselves for giving me birth and giving me the chance to live their dire regrets choosing not to love their daughter and to choose their sons recreating and doing similar tragic shit like their parents had done So what they Hated and resented them for they passed down to me... I let it be...when I knew no better abd had no resources or outlet until I made the decision not to quit and to break their curse... cuz what is worse? sustaining the damage? or trying to manage a chance for a new life where I ruled the world in which I lived If Nas could free all his sons, and Forrest Gump could run..after spending his childhood with legs in braces then this marathon I'm racing could get me more than the paper I need to overcome the poverty that they passed down I'll also be sure the walls will come tumbling down like when Humpty Dumpty sat on his wall, falling and breaking...all the kings horses & mem couldn't put him back together again... so ya'll aint gonna put me back in time with your tragedy and entitled bullshit I'll be like mc hammer in the 90's too legit to quit..I won't be a has been.... rather a trophy wife married to myself and the integrity of healing that I've gained no longer am I blindfolded; now I can see reality is better than those nightmarish dreams and flashbacks I'll be sippin champagne when I'm thirsty instead of reminiscing about the worst days no more suicidal thoughts on my birthday sky is the limit forgiven for the trouble I ain't drinking your poison anymore kick I'm the door and bust in like the kool-aide man darkness fell across the land kryponite got shit on me I'm the new & invisible superman even though I'm a woman I got bigger balls than ya'll and the badder and smarter I am, the harder these bitches fall this bougie bitch invincible and blessed with more resilience to bounce back like Big Sean than the fuckery I talked about on this average track Keeps me wanting to eat & savor more hungry hungry hippos I ain't gonna tiptoe anymore or walk on thin ice Nancy Kerrigan won't beat me twice I'm done being nice to those who act like chucky from Child's play instead of an AK's bullets I'll spray the word game from far away so u gotta hot the d-e-c-k... so I won't spit at you... darkness won't drive out Darkness, said the Great Dr. Martin Luther K. I'll let my light shine bright to keep you away. Yesterday, tomorrow, and most definitely today

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