Temporary (Miss The Days)

I kind of miss the days when I didn’t take pills I kind of miss the days when I was happy and I was thrilled But now I feel like self-development isn’t real These things are only temporary, but they still kill To all my friends, you should be happy you ain’t me You should be glad you’re not depressed, severe fear or anxiety And did you hear the OCD, and Complex PTSD God, I wish all of these voices in my head would leave me be I’m on many different prescriptions for respiratory disease Depression, and OCD, Make my stomach queasy Strep and anxiety, I’m telling you, not easy Shoving pills down my throat into my stomach, let me breathe And if I miss my medicine, It’s a life or death decision Yesterday, left a bad taste in my mouth, pill’s I’ve been given Drinking and drinking and drinking down the Amoxicillin, Levofloxacin mixed with Moxifloxacin, Ofloxacin and liquid Azithromycin And the streptomycin, stress is rising, too much pilling, feels like everything is dying or ionizing, everyone is idolizing under “gods” who wish we die, they’re will be no afterlife, it’s just a theory, analyze it, If they’re gods then where’s the Bible? You could preach a milli’ miles, still, I won’t believe your lies that’s got everyone zombified, everyone is hypnotized, You’re the type of people who look away when God looks inside your eyes cause you’re afraid of Karma’s strike, so you try to run and hide but he sees the dark inside your mind, defying the lord Christ, trying to shine out the light, but he never loses a fight, full of power and might, making towers of light, created showers of life, the evil cowers in fright as they look to their right, they can’t believe they’re eyes, Everything happening in life, it’s like everything piling up, no one is trying enough, everyone crying a lot, kids and teens dying a lot, from Zoloft and Adderale, did I mention Trazedone, Methadone, setraline and Buspirone, get some help, Post Malone, yeah they follow like a drone, in my home I’m all alone I’m writing this down on my phone “If you know where to go, then just go where you told yourself to go” But I don’t know where to go Try to ask God for some help cause I’m trapped deep down this hole But first I have to help myself, but I don’t think it’s possible Have I gotten hate? Yes I did “Go quit” is what I’ve been told Have I ever quit? No? Cause I am unstoppable