much needed apology

momma said it'd be hard times but i thought she was lying ten years laters in da pen fa most of my life couldn't call and say i love her everything will be fine not because we didn't talk but if i did I'd be lying.. Ain't no money on da books so i stayed on my grind. washing clothes to buy spice, and make it back 3 times. gotta a plug on white girl started changing my life. abut it was only fa da worse cause my addiction was ice. Now I'm up in my cell all alone wit no lights hear da walls screaming at me,thoughts of taking my life. I'm feeling twisted when he said that i just can't do right. Homes,im bout ta change and I'm starting tonight. i wanna make it to my daughter,people losing they life. wish ida listened to you momma,gotta ajob and did right. now im a 3 time felon one more strike and its life. so I'm walking with a purpose i don't do then i die. i ain't going out like that,i got too much to do. like walk my daughter down the aisle, see her graduate school. watch her buy her first house, own a company too. Aint nobody messing with her cause her daddy a fool. If i could make you see one thing it's that I'm living fa you. i gotta leave da street alone and make it do what it do. I know ya mommas super proud of you, I'm proud of you too. I hope one day you feel da same fa me I'm praying you do. I know I'll never make it up to you fa time that we lost. wish ida been a better father never left you at all But i was always chasing paper and da streets when they called. yo momma want me inda house,im in da cut ducked off. i wish now back then I'd of known what i know. ya mothers always did her best when i look at you it shows. I know sometimes you may not feel it, love you more then you know. I'm your father you my daughter i ain't letting you go. moriah I'm so sorry for the path that i chose. i know ya daddy up and