angry at myself

I am angry but frankly I've been depressed I've been both I've shown growth I close my emotions away from the world I've been hurled I'm going to the underworld I'm angry don't know what to do about it I angry I'm blankly showing it, got more to make I don't take, I'm angry at myself my health is down I might drown I have a frown down town, I am so sorry that my story is not good enough, me making all of these excuses, with induces., I'm sorry that I'm not the old me, I struggle to chuckle, me getting into fights that bites our friendship I'm not mended from all of this pain i feel like a chain is on me with all of this guilt, I have built I will build up our friendship just trust I'm just rust i must, I will be ill and kill my emotions if I don't want to not be ill.